Life has been a bit of a roller coaster the past week.
I gave 2 weeks notice at work so this is my last week and Saturday is my last official day employed.
There are days when I feel confident that I made the best decision ever~
And then there are the days when The Fear hits and the inner turmoil begins.
Did I make the right decision?
Yes~ I know I did...even hubby agrees...but to leave a healthy salary behind for NOTHING...sheesh...what was I thinking???
I have been on some job interviews and as I sit there with a smile plastered on my face my mind is racing thinking,
"I don't want to do this job anymore!"
"Blah, blah,blah...it will be the same anywhere else I go!"
I'm burnt out.
If you follow me on Twitter, you know I was in NYC on Friday talking to an amazing company about a position in NJ, but due to my qualifications, they would want me in Manhattan.
While the thought of working in the city is exciting (wasn't that where I always thought I belonged?), adding what would end up being about 3 hours of commuting a day to my mentally exhausted self is a recipe for disaster.
We discussed relocation options which are also exceptionally appealing especially since there is opportunity in places I adore like Ireland and places I have always wanted to go like Scotland.
But, is uprooting my family the answer right now?
So I'm going to sleep on that one for the time being because I firmly believe that if it is meant for us to relocate the position will still be there if and when we decide.
What's meant to be shall be.
On another note, I'm proud to say I returned all the things in my previous blog post and then some.
It's amazing how sensible I can be.
Each of these last days surrounded by multitudes of brand new merchandise coming in the door faster than you can say "Credit Card" is challenging but I have remained strong even though I know I will no longer get 40% or more off of clothing....
And that friends, might be scarier then not earning that paycheck!