This morning as I dressed and found myself throwing on, yet again, the same exact pair of jeans I have been wearing almost every single day for weeks now.
I consciously thought to myself, "All I really need is this one pair of jeans."
Yet my closet is stuffed with close to 30 pairs.
Once upon a time this never bothered me.
Now I find it actually embarrassing.
I bought this skinny pair over the summer because I "needed" a pair to roll up just like this to wear with heels.
In the meantime, I have also tucked them into boots and worn them uncuffed with ballet flats.
A true multipurpose pair of jeans.
Still the closet is brimming with boot cut, barely boot cut, jean leggings, and flares in all different washes and stages of destroy.
Yet I grab the same pair over and over again
Last night I couldn't sleep and found myself watching Extreme Couponing.
I've seen bits and pieces of the show but never really watched an entire episode.
At first I felt sheer amazement at the huge amounts of money these people save.
Then as episode after episode played out I became more and more disillusioned.
Why in the world would you WANT 47 bottles of mustard?
Or 250 boxes of rice?
Or 30 pairs of jeans?
This new chapter of my life means my days of mass consumption are gone.
Other than rewards I previously earned from my favorite places to shop, or being gifted, there will be nothing new finding a home in my closet.
That is what made deciding what to spend our rewards to Pottery Barn on so hard.
It is no longer within my thought pattern to continue to buy more of the "same" kinds of stuff.
Truthfully, I am more than ok with that.
In fact, I spent my last few weeks working returning purchases I had recently made that deserved no justification.
Sure, it was hard to part with the most perfect red and camel Tahari dress I had found on sale and the newest color of my favorite Michael Kors sandals but I kept my resolve and did it.
Now as I dress I look at a few other things that really should have gone back too...but their receipts have expired and they are mine.
I know there will be times when I just want to shop...and some thrifting here and there is in the budget.
But when those times inevitably come that I just want to grab my wallet and run to my favorite retailers, I think I just need to look at this pair of jeans I'm wearing and remind myself that they are really all I need.
stripe tee: thrifted, jones new york
denim button up: jcrew
heeled loafers: jcrew
necklace: old limited
bracelets: old limited and express